I first meet Pamela Anderson on a
Tuesday. She's posing on the deck of a mid-century house in Beachwood Canyon, in
the low hills of Hollywood, as afternoon fades gently into evening. It's hard
to say what's more striking, when I first walk into the house: Pamela Anderson,
or the light on the deck, golden as only LA light can be at the end of a clear
afternoon. Beneath the sky, a band of grey smog hangs on the horizon – under
that, the creeping 101, the spindly marquees of hotels.
Pamela is wearing black lingerie
and a trench coat, and her hair is groomed into a neat bob. All day, she's been
a fantasy out of Hitchcock or Fellini: She's posed in tears with a pistol, in
silk pajamas, taking drags from ultra-thin Capris while clasping an oversized
cordless phone in a convincing semblance of panic. When the camera is doing its
work, the small army of assistants, stylists, hair people, and hangers-on all
fall silent. All I can hear is the beep-click of the shutter and Lana Del Rey
on the stereo, for mood.
Watch the new Pamela Anderson sci-fi short "Connected" on Motherboard.
It's not right to say she is
unrecognisable in the photos being taken; she is Pamela Anderson. But she looks
small for someone so much larger than life, and somehow modest, miles away from
the beach-bronzed rock 'n' roll goddess I was expecting. It's a strange effect.
The Pamela Anderson that comes up when I google her name, all smudged eyeliner
and wild chemical blonde, feels like another woman. It feels like an invention.
In my time with Pamela – beginning here and ending ten hours later, dazed, in an
Uber winding back down the hills – I will learn that the line between invention
and reality is porous.
Pamela Anderson filming a scene for Connected, a new sci-fi short premiering on Motherboard. Photo byTucker Tripp
As
I'm waiting to speak with
her, night falls. An assistant pulls the photographer aside.
I'm going to get wine," she
whispers, "what
should I get?" Rosé, chardonnay, champagne; the consultation spreads to Pamela. "Goldschläger?" she jokes. That's how she met her
first husband, Mötley
Crüe drummer Tommy Lee – she
sent him a shot of Goldschläger from across a Las Vegas bar. He licked her face
and they were married not long afterward, a modern-day fairytale, on the beach
in Cancun, the bride in a white bikini. Their union was catnip to paparazzi,
and the Anderson-Lees
were rarely out of tabloids throughout the mid-1990s, inadvertently creating
the celebrity sex tape genre before bearing two children and divorcing. Much of
what I know about Pamela Anderson before meeting her is coloured by the vivid
imagery of this era, which I absorbed at an impressionable age. The assistant
goes for rosé.
The segue from shot to matrimony
sounds improbable, but that's the way Pamela tells stories: as impressionistic
collages of names, moments, and places, sometimes daisy-chained into breathless
sequences. Each is like a little flower arrangement. David LaChapelle, Las
Vegas, bathrobes, glitter on her skin, "visiting Elton in his room." That's how
she lives, too. She doesn't have a manager, or an agent; she never really has – "they
just give up on me," she says. Instead, she meets people, follows her
instincts, gets into pickles, unpickles herself, picks up, moves on. She claims
to be both unmanageable and suggestible, demonstrating a combination of
freewheeling courage and guilelessness that has led her to who she is today: a
newly-single sex symbol pushing 50 with a rolodex full of artist friends and
two adult sons, entering what she calls "Chapter Two" of her career.
The way Pamela tells it, Chapter
One was one long mistake. Discovered at 19 on the Jumbotron of a BC Lions
football game in Vancouver, Canada, she'd never even been on an airplane until
she flew to Los Angeles for her first
Playboy
shoot. The magazine had pursued her intermittently after the Jumbotron fluke
led to a Labatt's beer ad and then a photo campaign for the Vancouver gym where
she worked. When Playboy called her at home, she was in the middle of a fight
with her fiancé.
He was throwing silverware. The phone rang.
Pamela, this is Playboy – would you
consider doing a cover for us?
"I was ducking, avoiding forks, knives," she
recounts to me, wrapped in a white terry bathrobe after the photo shoot finally ends, holding a long-stemmed champagne glass. "I was on the floor of the
kitchen going, 'Yes! Yes! When can I go?'" The magazine proposed a test shoot
just as Pamela's fiancé entered a new paroxysm of jealousy, graduating from
lobbing cutlery to trays. "That's how I came to LA. I just left. The next day."
She crossed the Canadian border in
a bus, then flew from Seattle to LA after spending a night – her first – in a
hotel. The
Playboy shoot was touch
and go. She was so nervous she vomited when a female wardrobe assistant touched
her breast. They only shot one roll of film, but it was enough. In a striped
Oxford blazer and tie – and not much else – she graced the October 1989 cover of
the magazine, her first of 14 covers, more than any other single model.
She
credits the magazine for her career and her cultural education. "I always say I
went to university at
Playboy. I met activists and gentlemen, we talked about
art and politics, films and music. I met musicians and actors. That's where I
got my information." Not that she came in empty-headed. Growing up in British
Columbia, she read a lot. Hugh Hefner teased her because she was the only
Playboy model who could recognise his mansion's art collection – none of the
other girls could tell the Dalis from the Basquiats.
Photo by Luke Gilford
In 1991, Pamela was cast as Home Improvement's original "Tool Time" girl,
and then, in 1992, without an audition, as the Malibu lifeguard CJ Parker in
Baywatch. The show was high camp, like most of her major acting gigs: as Vallery Irons in the action-comedy
sitcom
V.I.P., as the titular character in the universally panned Barb Wire. In leaner years, she did what
she could to pay the bills, including working as a magician's assistant in Las
Vegas and making cameo appearances on international franchises of Big Brother
and Dancing with the Stars. But it's
Baywatch,
where she first sported a high-cut red swimsuit, that made her an icon. Pam
explains her career after that first
Playboy cover more succinctly: "I was
going to come home, and then
Baywatch happened, and then everything else kind
of just happened, and I got married, and rock stars, and kids."
Her kids are 18 and 19 now, both in
college, both "really well-adjusted, great boys." Her red
Baywatch swimsuit is for sale on eBay, along with the 3.24 carat
diamond engagement ring given to her by her third – and fourth – husband,
professional poker player Rick Solomon, from whom she has only recently
divorced. The proceeds will go to the rainforest preservation charity Cool
Earth, an organisation championed by her friend Vivienne Westwood. "We all hang
onto these things and the world is falling apart," she explains, but "I'm
saving half the rainforest in Papua New Guinea by selling that engagement ring.
He doesn't care, trust me."
Photo by Luke Gilford
Pamela has been an environmentalist
and animal lover since childhood. At 12, she convinced her father to stop
hunting after discovering a headless deer carcass in the house, bleeding into a
bucket. She never ate meat again. Sixteen years later, she was on a
never-ending
Baywatch promotional tour, visiting one country after another, and
tired of answering the same questions – who are you dating, who are you wearing – she wrote a letter to PETA. It was written on mauve stationary,
return-addressed "Mrs. Happy."
Dear PETA,
I'm in a TV show called "Baywatch" and the press is obsessed
with my personal life. I'd really like to divert some of the attention to
things more important than my boobs or my boyfriends. Can we join forces? I've
been an animal lover and a PETA member since I was a kid, sending in rolled up
quarters, and I've always wanted to get more involved. Please use me.
Love,
Pamela Anderson
"I said," she recalls now, "do
something with me. I want to share this attention with something more
meaningful. Give me anything."
Dan Mathews, now PETA's senior vice president of media campaigns, opened the letter; he took her gambit, beginning
a decades-long relationship with Pamela, PETA's most successful poster child
and advocate. Mathews, the architect of PETA's highly visible "I'd Rather Go
Naked Than Wear Fur" campaigns, considers Pamela and PETA a match made in heaven.
She remains the organisation's most committed spokesperson, promoting each
campaign the way other celebrities might promote a film: doing talk shows,
doing junkets, traveling internationally. She's got a really punk rock attitude
about ," Mathews explains to me over the phone. "She doesn't care
what people think. And because she's so sexy, so friendly and engaging in a
positive way, that no matter how challenging the message might be, the
messenger is so dynamic that you can't ignore it. I think that's the magic
combo."
Everywhere Pamela goes, Mathews
identifies local animal rights issues: exotic circus animals in Monaco,
chinchilla furs in Paris, laboratory chimps in Florida. Her activism ("my
activism," she says, a lot, as though it were a disease) has only intensified
in recent years. In 2014, she started her own charity, the Pamela Anderson
Foundation, which cites as its goals the protection of "human, animal, and
environmental rights," and in 2015 she joined the board of Sea Shepherd, an
anti-whaling organisation known for its aggressive direct-action tactics. She
calls Julian Assange a friend ("I think he's one of the leaders of the free
world") and in December, visited the Kremlin with a delegation from
International Fund for Animal Welfare.
A still from 'Connected.' Image courtesy of Luke Gilford
Not that all of Pamela's second
chapter is wrapped up in politics. Tonight, for instance, after we finish our
interview, we're supposed to go to a fashion party. It's not far, in Hollywood – the
designer Stella McCartney, an old friend, is showing her fall 2016 collection
at Amoeba Records. Everyone is going to be there, I'm told – even Dan from PETA.
Pamela disappears into the bedroom and emerges wearing a tailored black-and-white dress, her hair swirled into an updo. She looks impossibly chic and I
suddenly feel underdressed. A little more champagne and a black Suburban takes
us down the hill, straight to the business end of a red carpet gauntlet. Pamela
hoofs it across, photographers howling her name, a storm of shutters; women
holding iPads point me down the quieter path, behind the flashes. We rejoin at
the entrance, where I immediately lose her in the crowd. I find out later that
she left. When we meet again, back at the house, she's apologetic: The lighting
was too harsh. Too many people. This is what it's like to be around someone
famous.
Pamela became a celebrity in a
different age. Although hounded by paparazzi during her rocky and very public
marriages to Tommy Lee and briefly, Kid Rock, she retained some measure of
inaccessibility. Her heirs to the throne of tabloid notoriety have no such
luxury, nor do they desire it. The celebs created by Instagram and YouTube
became famous to be seen; what's the point of privacy? Now that every would-be
Kardashian can send out a constant,
direct-to-consumer stream of staged intimacy and selfies, access – the
longtime currency of fame – has been upended. Pamela, whose image was ubiquitous
before ubiquity could be juiced with retweets, is left in the strange position
of having to renegotiate the nature of her own public image.
'We could have saved the entire rainforest in the entire world,' she tells me, 'with that stupid sex tape.'
"I never really paid attention to
those tabloid stories," she says dismissively. All of her old signifiers are
gone: The Playboy Mansion, her first destination in Los Angeles, her incubator
and university, is currently on the market for $200 million. Hef is 89. The
magazine itself is changing format; Pamela was the cover star of its last nude
issue. Although
Baywatch is trudging
inexorably towards a movie reboot, Pamela – as of now, anyway – is not slated for
so much as a cameo. And her sex tape with Tommy Lee, the great scandal of her
public life, is hardly shocking anymore. For the record, she tells me – she
insists – the couple didn't sell their video to anyone. Dirty money. "We could
have saved the entire rainforest in the entire world," she tells me, "with that
stupid sex tape."
The Pamela of the present is not
the Pamela of the past, but she knows how to exploit the fame that the swimsuit
brought her. She is nothing if not self-aware. "I don't know how I turn boobs
into trees and whales and oceans, but I do," she says. "Whatever attention I've
gotten, I've used it to get in the door of a lot of places." In campaigns for
PETA, she models lettuce-leaf bikinis; she owns a shoe company, Pammies, that
sells a vegan version of the shearling Ugg boots she made famous on Baywatch.
She plays her present against her past like she's casting it against type;
every charitable, intelligent, or daring thing she does is newsworthy precisely
because it breaks with her public image as a bimbo party girl. A few days after
I met her, she was in Paris, speaking to the National Assembly of France about
the practice of force-feeding geese to make foie gras. French politicians were
less than generous about the credibility of
Alerte
à Malibu
's star lifeguard, but her
presence made headlines internationally. How long she'll be able to play this
line remains to be seen. Eventually, even the past eludes us.
A still from 'Connected.' Image courtesy of Luke Gilford
Pamela did a short film recently, Connected, directed by her friend and
collaborator Luke Gilford. (VICE's tech channel Motherboard is debuting it.) She
plays Jackie, a lonely spin instructor who lives in Venice Beach and is obsessed
with the usual Southern Californian alchemies of youth and beauty: She juices,
she applies creams, she meditates. The film surprises in many ways, not least
with Pamela's performance, which is subdued, vulnerable, even raw.
In one
scene, she faces herself in the mirror, pulling and pushing at her body,
showing her age; in another, she weeps on the floor next to her stationary
bike. No makeup, no skimpy outfits. Just a quiet voice, stripped of much of its
SoCal affectation. Pamela has never presented as being less than perfect in a
film – she's never been asked to – and the role was difficult precisely because of
its familiarity. As a single mother of two facing the realities of ageing in
Hollywood, it hit close to home.
She felt self-conscious on set, but
listening to music helped her get into the zone. Particularly "End of
Innocence," by Enigma; Pamela gave birth to her first son, Brandon, to "Age of
Innocence." It's still a favourite of hers, she says, because it reminds her of
a time in her life when she was happy. "I was at the height of everything," she
says:
"I'd just gotten here, I was working, I had Baywatch, and then I met
Tommy, and we got married, and we had babies. You never feel like that dream is
going to end. I never felt like I would ever be divorced. I never thought
everything would fall apart. I never thought I'd be a single mom. I never
thought I'd be in other relationships. I just felt so good at that time, when I
was listening to that music. To hear it again and realise what's happened in
the last 20 years, how all that was taken away. It happens to so many women."
When I speak to Gilford – full
disclosure: I call him a friend – about this, he goes quiet. She was going
through a divorce during the shooting of the film, and they are close enough
for him to know the details. He even encouraged her to use that pain in the
film's more emotional scenes. His fascination with Pamela mirrors mine;
Connected is an attempt to scratch at
the surface of a sex symbol's mythology to get at the human being beneath. Her
age works in his favour, in that regard. Although she's still stunning, she's no
longer being cast in the sexpot roles that have bankrolled her career, and that
very real questioning – what next? – reveals Pamela's vulnerability, her
soulfulness, attributes that may serve her during Chapter Two, whatever that
may be.
She invented herself in the first place. She was a flat-chested brunette from Canada who evolved into a blonde bombshell American icon.
—Luke Gilford
"What is the trajectory, or the evolution," Gilford asks me, "of someone
who's really made her mark on the world with her body, something that
inevitably depreciates with age?"
Perhaps it begins with truth. In
2014, when Pamela launched her foundation, she spoke for the first time
publicly about a history of sexual abuse in her childhood and adolescence.
Around the same time, she cut off all her hair. They were not equivalent acts,
but they were related.
"I felt people didn't really
understand there's a human being behind , a person," she tells me. "You
really can't judge anybody. Everyone's gone through hard times." Naming her
suffering and chopping away at her image, she revealed a willingness to be
public in a new way. She has always been visible, but she wanted to be seen.
Gilford agrees. "She invented herself in the first place. She was a
flat-chested brunette from Canada who evolved into a blond bombshell American
icon. She invented that. And now, at almost 50, she's ready to be
reinvented. To show more truth."
I leave Pamela Anderson late, not
far from where I first saw her. She's curled on a low couch, stilettos kicked
off on the rug. I'm tired, I look tired, my makeup has smudged, but she's still
Pamela Anderson. I shake her small hand, wish her well, and I mean it.
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